The Dust Is Beginning To Settle

Oct 24, 2006

At this point, I’ve seen Kat every day since last Thursday, and I’ll be seeing her again tonight. I’ve spent the last two nights at her apartment. When I walked her to the train station this morning, I asked if I was going to see her tonight, and she looked at me with this “Do you really have to ask?” expression on her face. Perhaps the best part is that we’re both on the same page about the situation. I like her, and she likes me. She has a boyfriend, and she’s going to stay committed to that as long as it’s there. For the time being, the boundaries are set, and we’re just enjoying ourselves within those limits. I expect we’ll continue that for some time, too. It’s really quite amazing. It’s like the hot-and-heavy part of the start of a relationship, but on a strictly emotional and intellectual level.

It’s hard to describe how I’m feeling right now. Obviously, I’m really delighted at how things have progressed, though a bit amazed at how quickly. Spending time with Kat is just plain fulfilling, though. Very surprisingly, I’m also not feeling like I’m missing anything. Certainly, there’s a desire there that’s unfulfilled, but I don’t really mind. I’ve accepted that that’s how it is, and there’s nothing else to say.

Considering the level of bond I’ve got with Kat, I really feel like she’s my girlfriend. However, we’re very clear that she’s not. I feel like I need to come up with some way to refer to her that indicates that properly, though what that would be I have no idea.